with junior year already started, i can't help but feel a whirlwind of emotions pick me up and literally fling me through an almost nervous / giddy / excited breakdown. i know what i want to be when i grow up. i really do. the problem is, plans change and people change. i know my dream will be forever this way. it's just the journey to get there that makes me anxious.
this song really does fit in nicely with what i'm feeling. enjoy.
as i sit here in my brand new kitchen, i'm being bombarded with thoughts of my blogging absense. i guess the main reason as to why i didn't upload a single post since may is that i just couldn't find the inspiration. don't get me wrong, i had an amazing summer. i just couldn't come up with a single topic that didn't seem forced. i'm glad to be back now, though!
this summer was full of late night dinner dates, movie outings with my dad, bike rides with my best friends, and beach bumming with my beautiful cousin. it was indeed a summer that i will cherish forever and ever. i spent every day with my mom and that was good enough for me.
due to a family emergency, i was able to move in and all the day right before work week for sorority recruitment started. lets just say i lived in a massive room with a tiny bed and boxes EVERYWHERE. thank god my roommates were here to lend me a towel or toothpaste. once all that was over and done with on sunday, my dad, brother and sister came down to ftw from htx to move in all my furniture and boxes! yes i am still unpacking everything. and with classes and all, i still need to figure out when to squeeze that and sleeping in. i guess my social life will be on hold for the next few day? hope not...
in some other news, classes started yesterday and i couldn't be happier! i live in a house with some of my closest friends about 5 minutes (walking) from campus. so happy to be so close. my professors are all super cool and my classes are small, intimate, and enlightening. woohoo for me.
that pretty much sums up everything i've been hiding the past three months or so. i'll be back before you know it!
I've been laying in bed staring at my ceiling for the past two hours. It's so dark in my room that I literally would fail to find my own ass with my bare hands. I love the darkness. The flash of light before the loud thunder shakes my house to the core. I love the coziness of my bed and the amount of fluff that I'm just now no ringing covering me from head to toe. I love the rain. The pitter-patter on the window has never sounded so sweet in my life. And the best thing is that it's Sunday. I can lay here all day and ponder in my thoughts. I can think about the movie I watched last night, Mad Max. I can think of the Game of Thrones season finally I'm going to watch tonight. I can think about the book I'm reading now, Cheyenne Amber, and all the Wild West and Native American traditions I long to live by. I can think about my new favorite song, We Can't Stop by Miley Cyrus. There's just so much to a good ole rainy day. There's no telling what can come of it. I love the rain and the thunder and the feeling that the only think keeping you safe from a drenching cold is the safety of a window.
so here's the deal. i love my hair because its so thick and shiny and pretty much all around healthy. i've always had so much trouble finding the perfect products for my hair and exactly what styling techniques to stick to. blow outs make my hair frizzy and brittle looking. ramrod straight dos make my hair look like a helmet. i like my hair just natural and wavy and flowy and down. so i'm literally on the prowl for the best products. i've gone through blogs, reviews, and websites and just tested stuff here and there. agh this is so complicated!! but its working. i also want my hair to grow out.... i got the "college cut" (to my collarbone) in october of my freshman year of college. now i can't get it past my boobs. i'm about to be a junior. come on.......... grow grow grow.
i seriously need more hair tips
on a side note, i just got like 36 (no joke) different makeup products today! yay! and i got them for free. yep. free. my mom decided she doesn't look good in certain shades that just so happen to be my perfect color match so i got all this amazing stuff for free. ranging from foundations to lipsticks. i am over the moon delighted. like i want to wear them all.
by the time i was done trying on all the lipsticks, glosses, balms, & pencils, my lips were legit swollen and unnaturally red from all the rubbing. its like making out. minus the hot guy. sigh.
soooo here's the deal. i think i just may have to quit this blog every day in may thang. although i absolutely loved the whole idea and i tried to follow it as consistently as possible, i still got behind a few days. i think i'll just have to blog at my own pace now..........
in other news, this chick -
kimber being weird
got home late last night! yay!!! so glad by bffe (best freckled friend ever) is back!
she's been in florence studying abroad all semester and i literally cannot contain myself. i get to see her in like 2 hours or less!!!!!!!!! eek!!!
17, Friday:A favorite photo of yourself
i love this picture. look at me. i look so young and carefree. i can see it in my eyes. that sassy look and smile basically telling the camera that i don't give a damn about anything. i just look like i know i'm cute and i can do whatever the hell i want with it. my hair flying wild and free shows the lack of inhibitions i had at such a young age. it's such a freeing age if you think about it. your biggest worries were if carol was going to like your new pink ribbons or if bradley was going to give you cooties on the playground on monday .
oh, and i love the beach. so this picture really shows me in my element. just sassy, carefree, way too much carefree-ness actually, and my sweetness. all in my favorite place.
p.s. look at the hot bikini. that heart cut-out is just mega scandalous.